The Feeling When; It Used To Be Chocolate Rain. Now, It’s Heavy Rain… and Edging Your Brain With Media.

— Posted inGaming, Literature, Movies & TV, Uncategorized — 2 min read

If you can tell your story in reverse and it’s not interesting, you don’t have a very good story. I’ve heard this in my head since the moment some film snob (professor) out snobbed me during a break in lecture. We spoke of films and writing and great ways to do it and I had most recently seen Memento and it was fresh in the frontal lobe.

“Memento is a bad… if you reverse it then it’s just a crazy guy helping a killing innocent people. If you can tell your story in reverse and it’s not interesting, you don’t have a very good story.”

– I forget

It completely changed my mind in that instant. I had not yet thought of it this way. I had not gotten to the level of depth of thought that this man had enlightened me with.

This seems to happen mostly with the mystery genre. Some writers believe that if you just seed a possible untruth that can catch you, then nothing else matters. I’m not positive that anything exemplifies this as much as Heavy Rain. Pulling the metaphorical wool over our eyes with the advanced motion capture technology they had pioneered. Interacting with these types of media feel like the mental equivalent of a ruined climax after an extended edging session. They just do not have the payoff that they feel like they’ve earned after the time you’ve spent with it. They never seem apologetic, ashamed, or having been written by anyone with any level of scrutiny.

Basically, what gets you going and then craps out at the end? Makes me wonder…. what other pieces of media, that I’ve experienced, do that?

Maybe I’ll com back here and add to the list. Let’s call it… “Go out with a wet fart list” or GOWAWFL for short.

LOST
Memento
Heavy Rain
St. Elsewhere

Starting from the bottom now we… start… starting… sta… starting from th…. starting from the bo…. st…. startingfrmdabtmnowwyherr…..?

— Posted inUncategorized — 4 min read

BE AWARE THAT THIS IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

If you begin and begin and begin and begin you can finally know what you like and how you like it… or so you think and think you shall. Over and over and over. Click next, click next, erase, install, rebuild, reset, try again. There’s something in the ritual that feels so new and yet so…

…annoying.

I want to stop setting things up and tinkering with them but I don’t know how to stop. So anyways here’s what I do.

Install distro – This time is back Manjaro. I gravitate back to Manjaro every time I stray from the path to test something else. Why does everyone like Ubuntu? Everything seems more difficult on Ubuntu to me… maybe I’m just stupid. However, running Glorious Eggroll‘s fedora based Linux distribution named ‘Nobara‘ was a very nice experience I just think it has a… soft rounded safe baby feeling or something. I think I have synesthesia but for operating systems and their gui’s and strange, uncomfortable,and quite frankly, to most, disturbing connections.

Anyways you’ll need tools and apps and packages and images and etc. etc. but it’s all not really all that complicated because it all happens one step at a time.

TOOLS:
Ventoy – Download the Linux version at SourceForge
Netboot – This is just a great iso to add to your Ventoy USB.

Many distributions will come with Firefox as the default browser. I’m unsure that it’s the organization it should be at this point. Firefox has had some wins but mostly it makes the internet harder to use if you move between devices often. I currently use Vivaldi, however, I’m not currently in love with any one browser. I have created a fairly good system with Vivaldi, but I’m open to recommendations.

KEY:

  • AUR = Install it from the Arch User Repository (only Arch and Arch derivatives such as Manjaro or Garuda)
  • PAC = Install with Pacstall. Hopefully more and more people begin to use it so Debian (Debian and Debian derivatives based systems can have an AUR equivelant.

ADD GNOME EXTENSIONS:

  • Pano – A really nice graphical clipboard manager. except on this is currently not compatible with Gnome 46 so we’ll pivot to Clipboard indicator – ugly but it will work for the time being.
  • Click to close overview – If you use Gnome and dash to dock (which is often the standard way Gnome will be installed)
  • Open Bar
  • Task Widget

APPS:

  • Beeper – Makers of the eye opening (for the old people in congress) Beeper Mini. The app that proved Apple is only using iMessage to keep market share. So convenient. Two birds with one stone. Stick it to Apple and simplify my entire communication system. So much better to have all your chats in one place. I just hope they can add a feature to group people into one chat app. Discord, RCS, Insta, Facebook, Signal, etc. etc. Based on Matrix which is what Signal is based on. I don’t know what that means yet, but I like the word Matrix since I’m a 90s kid so I was probably going to gravitate to it anyway.
  • Vesktop/Armcord/DiscordClientorwhatever – Get one that lets you do your video sharing or whatever. I really want to switch to element or whatever that FOSS one is.
  • Vivaldi Browser – Not flatpak. It’s nice to have the GNOME Shell Extensions Firefox ‘Gnome Shell Integration‘ browser extension
  • ProtonMail – If you don’t want googs looking at your spams.
  • DCONF – Edit some gnome settings that have been arbitrarily decided on by the GNOME org.
    /org/gnome/settings-daemon/plugins/power/
    power-button-action=suspend
    sleep-inactive-ac-timeout Set 12,000
  • Steam – Install from your official repo. Don’t install the FLATPAK (I mean go ahead but more often than not you want to use the native Linux app from your respective software center) open > log in > exit.
  • ProtonUp-QT – All the dependencies. Launch. Install for: Steam. Add version: GE-Proton [latest], SteamTinkerLaunch [latest]
  • Steam – Steam menu-settings-copmpatibility-Enable Steam Play for all other titles-Run other titles with GE-Proton[latest] (or steamtinkerlaunch but start with GE-Proton)
  • Heroic Launcher – Flatpak or Official. EPIC, GOG, Prime.
  • Lutris – I dunno, I still think this is hard to use, but people say to have it? Might as well.
  • Feral GameMode – I guess this does something for the scheduling of the gpu and cpu? I don’t know, just make sure to go through the gamemode.ini. There is something to do with

All the time the things are hard and none of it ever thinks about the children…

— Posted inPersonal, Privacy, Technology — 2 min read

Of waxing and waning on the mere idea of attempting, or having been being in an attemptive sort of mood at the end of our year… (and transitioning to a sleepy sort of washed out blue sunset hue sort of situation) I did… in fact… decide to accept my personal affliction, and (mind you) this disease… quite the most unending of headaches during my afternoon psychic walks through childhood trauma… An illness of such a magnitude that I could not shake it regardless of the prescription nor concentrate. No, no sort of biotic (or anti-thereof) would sort this out, the only way to ascend… to grow? to build… was to give in and allow myself the eccentricity of a desire for silent anarchy. Does one deserve the walled garden? Rather, are we all complicit; did I help build it and if so can I find a solution? … a blueprint for existence alongside, yet not next to, the status quo, more-for-less; can I avoid the bafflification of knowledge which landscapes the encapsulation of this digital experiment?

Trying to excuse yourself from the table, even when you brought your own dish, is a little awkward it seems.

In the five (or so) months that I have been attempting a patient and safe decoupling of my vessel from the Space Station U.S.S. Alphabet? … I have been able to accomplish far less than I had hoped. What the proletariat reality consists of, currently, is the daily onslaught of many disparate threads clutching together to weave an ugly tapestry in representation of the (hardly) functional life we lead today. Maybe just me?

I don’t think so. I’ll continue moving towards a personal operating system that works for my deprecated firmware; outside of the mainstream technodictate. Just right after I muster the mental fortitude, convert that to alacrity, and organize my photos without Google…

Has anyone even worried that this is too much for the children? Think of the poor children?! :)?